Maybe we have it wrong. Maybe searching for our destiny, our purpose and our special contribution is not how we can find them. That elusive pearl is the result of another search, one that must come first with courage and commitment.
I am referring to facing the parts of ourselves that repel our greatness and tell us that we are not worthy to live in a state of grace, the parts that keep us small and contained and disallow our ability to make a difference. What do we believe about ourselves and who we are? I recently met a man who told me that he feels that he is a coward. Other people are so disconnected from their feelings that they don’t know what they want, feel or need. We all have a built-in guidance system, and that is our feelings. Sometimes I get chills of affirmation when a friend tells me about an epiphany that I sense is significant. On the other hand, I can feel myself recoil when I am around someone whose energy is not compatible with mine.
We have to come to terms with our tendencies to reject opportunities that have been programmed since we were children and confirmed as adults and to quiet the voice that whispers in our ears that we are not worthy or special. Can we do this without being angry with ourselves for not having seen it earlier? Where we are is the perfect place and the perfect time to make a change and to free ourselves to explore our highest intuition. Once we have lifted our self-imposed oppression, our purpose and destiny will be clearer. That’s what I think. How about you?
Hi Ellie – thanks for all your posts. I look forward to them. Its interesting idea about our personal destinies – I agree with you about coming to terms with ourselves. You are an explorer, so you don’t mind self reflection and growth even if it is sometimes painful. I feel that way also. I think some people need to know it is okay to not grow beyond their childhood programming if they are somewhat content where they are. I have tried to help people reach for more to find that they suffered in the process and often reverted back without coping skills. Often people will read all these books towards self fullfillment and be left with so much guilt for not changing and growing according to someone elses ideas of destiny, perpetuating a terrible cycle of shame – of “not being good enough” or being cowardly. I do think that practicing gratitude within the limits of what they are doing in their life at the present moment is destiny. (not sure if my thoughts are clear)
Anyway – thanks for sharing – still waiting for spring in NY.
You bring up so many good points, Christine. We can all benefit from your experience, and your ability to nourish and nurture people at all points in their awareness.