My move to Santa Fe is not about having a new address. It is about embracing a new life. It is making peace with the past and moving unencumbered into the future.
This weekend, I got an opportunity to do that. At a family wedding, I saw many old friends whom I had lost touch with after a thirty-year friendship. They were part of my life when I didn’t really know myself. It was in a busy time of raising children and establishing a career. We lost touch and I changed. The last time I saw them I had a mission. I wanted them to see me and accept the me whom I discovered, who was always there but took a back seat to the busy-ness of life. That mission fell flat on its face. I didn’t get the acknowledgement that I needed.
Several years passed and I saw them again this weekend. This time it was different. I didn’t need anything from them. I didn’t need them to change or to see me in any particular way. I was truly happy to see each one of them. I felt warm and loving and honoring of their lives and choices, and very secure in my own approach to life. I spent the night with a smile on my face as I greeted each one of them.
The outcome was remarkable. They were warm and loving and happy in turn to see me. They sought me out and shared in the joy of my children and upcoming adventure. When I didn’t need anything from them I received it tenfold. I am still beaming from the loving connection that I felt that night. I am truly ready to move on with a free and open heart.
I enjoyed reading this and could relate to having friends from different parts of my life and thinking, for example, that even my best friends in college didn’t really know me. It’s nice to see that it can all work out so beautifully.